"A Broken Heart"
All the words you said to me
That seemed to be so true
Were nothing but thoughtless lies
That I thought would never come from you.
They seemed so real and so true
I was beginning to understand
that I was in love with you.
But I should have known it was all an act,
that I was just another girl
Just another girl to add
to your list of broken hearts.
I wonder why I still think of you
after all your lies and sweet words
I think its because you made me feel
Like I was your special girl.
I thought I was, I thought you cared
and that I was the only one
But all you wanted was to have a little fun
I could never be with you
after what I found out
You lied to me about lots of things
that's what this is mostly about.
Im not telling you exactly what I know
You can deny it all you want
but I'm finally deciding to let my feelings go
I will never forget you and what you did
No matter how hard I may try
I will always remember you in my years to come
Until my eternal good-bye.
"Love & Hate"
How in the world could you do this to me
I thought I was good to you, let you be free.
You turned around and changed your mind so easily
You gave me up so soon and so quickly.
We had so many plans for us when we're older
But now all it seems is your heart has grown colder.
I gave you love through thousands of ways
We were together for thousands of days
You said goodbye as if I were nobody to you
I guess I should learn to do that, too.
I see you with her and tears fill my eyes
Then I start to think of all your lies.
I cant believe you told me those words
But they weren't true and that really hurts
You told me we'd be together for years
These words were truly music to my ears.
The thought of you loving me that much was great
But that wasn't real either, so now I feel hate.
I hate you for doing this and ruining my life
And putting me through all this sadness and strife
I hate you because I love you
Thats truly hard to say
I'll love you forever, yes, thats true
I'll love you until my last day
A friend told me that words are nothing
Until the words are acted with something
Some kind of gesture any little thing
Could have proven you actually meant everything.
You've ruined my life, hopefully just temporarily
I hate you for now, yet I say that so wearily.
I hope you know what you've done to me
I hope you can know, I hope you can see
That you've fucked me up bad from your worthless lies
That's why you've always seen me with tears in my eyes.
I don't know why I bother
Why I even care
Because you don't seem to realize
That I'm no longer there.
"It's Over"
That's it Im done, I'm over you
I promised myself to never go back
You've broken my heart and got someone new
You used me for an entire six months
and now its over and done with
I never thought I'd be over you so quickly
You seemed to not care
So I learned how to, too.
I saw you around with that other girl
and boy it hurt be badly
but today I seemed to not care
I don't know how that was possible.
Our relationship is over
and it took bme forever to realize
that we would never be together again
You told me there was another chance
sometime in the future.
But fuck no there is no chance
not after what you've done to me
First you broke my heart
then kicked it aside
and now you've stepped on it many times
But I realize now it wasnt meant to be
and you are just as much of a jerk
as I thought you used to be.
"Guys don't change for any girl"
is what I heard from everyone
I didn't think they understood you and us
but they sure as hell did.
So fuck you and go to hell
because I no longer care
and now you know that I hate you
and I'm already part of a pair.
I got someone new
and You sure as hell dont
because they know what you did to me
None want part of that
they don't want your shit
so have a nice life.
"Thank You"
How do you tell
the single most important
man in your life
what a difference he has made
or how many times
the sound of his voice
has lifted your spirit
and given you the courage
to keep following the path
of your dreams?
How do you find the words to thank him
for sacrifices hes made
for the ones you know about
and the ones he's never told you of-
and the countless times he put your needs
before his own?
I cannot put into words the way I feel about you,
but I hope you always know in your heart how much I love you,
respect you,
and thank you for the countless ways
you've helped make my life what it is today.
"Today" (for Kara, here is your breakup letter! Change whatever you want, feel free.)
Today I realized something
I realized I love you
But I don't know what to do
You love me like no other
and You have never felt this way
But I don't know if I can take it
Being so committed at such a young age.
I love you more than you know
More than anyone knows, really
But things haven't been working lately,
and I don't know what to do.
Today I realized that
I can't do the things they say to do
and I can't be so tied down all the time
and be worrying every minute
"Will this make him mad?"
"Will he break up with me for this?"
"What if he reads that?"
It's too hard to explain
and you may never know
But I do love you with all my heart
and I do want another chance for us
in the future.
I just cant do it anymore
it's too hard to stay this way
I really can't do it you don't understand
I'm only in 9th grade.
I might move away and things could go wrong
and I don't want that pressure on me
The pressure of knowing you are mine and I have to leave you
We have years ahead of us to be together
We are only in high school
Some say "High school love is not love at all: it is lust." and I'm starting to believe it
We may say we love each other, and maybe we really do,
but babe it's only high school
15 and 16 years old.
That's not enough time to know what love is
or how love really happens.
Sure we have good times
and I cherish those
and Just because this isnt going right
doesn't mean we cant still have good times
just as friends.
Please understand where I'm coming from
I just need a break
maybe a day, a week, a month
but however long it takes to get situated
I will still love you. I will still want you. I will still need you.
You mean more to me than you really know
and I don't know how long I can take it without you
But I need to figure it out.
I love you, and well, temporarily...
Good bye.
